Sometimes total closure isn’t really the greatest thing (At least for me it ain’t)
It’s been a couple of hours/days since My Chemical Romance broke up and I’m still pretty devastated and I’m still pretty upset. I’m still feeling every emotion I know, and it’s not that great. 0/100. Would not recommend.
The reality is moving in a slow burn and I’m not really appreciative of that sort of feeling. I need the shock value to take a hike since I have a midterm to study for. I digress to say that instead of studying hard, I’m whining about a band that will never know of my existence…
LOOK AT MY LIFE CHOICES.
Now, despite the fact that Gerard Way wrote that letter of closure, I’m not really feeling it’s jive. I’m not really feeling it’s closure, I’m not feeling much of anything really. It was beautifully written and brought out a smile here and there but still come on… It was a letter of MCR’s end.
The thing is that MCR is quite literally gone. No more shenanigans, no more interviews, no more merch, no more concerts, and no more fifth album (I was really looking forward to the elusive fifth album, guys). This isn’t comics in which characters make a come back in a millisecond, or that deaths and disappearances of said characters are left open ended and we always have a tiny glimmer of hope. Alas, this is real life and when something is gone it stays that way. And that’s where the slow burn starts to pick up the pace and I start to feel like I’m at a funeral.
But I digress again, in retrospect MCR didn’t do a lot for me, actually. I wasn’t a troubled child looking for solace nor was I a rock head. MCR didn’t save me from anything, it was just actually the FIRST ever music video I witnessed when cable TV reached the shores of sunny Malaysia. And that was it, that was the sentimental value of the band to me. It was my FIRST band and the rest should be pretty self explanatory.
To be brutally honest, I would have preferred to live in band breakup limbo. To forever be plagued by rumors and Reddit. To always have hope. That letter if closure was like my double edged sword. It was nice to know what happened, it was great to know that they’re leaving on good terms, it wasn’t all that wonderful when MCR’s end was confirmed.
Nonetheless, I want to give everyone involved in MCR a great cheer for future success and maybe hope for a point in time when they can make music together again. Probably not, but hey scram, I’m pouring my heart out here.
My heart still feels the cold air of abandonment, and it’ll take a while to come full circle and accept the hard truth. Until that time comes, I have a midterm to desecrate and a Batman #18 variants order I have to worry for and that’s pretty much all that I have to say.
P.S. AND UGH 10EVER AT THE ELUSIVE FIFTH ALBUM.